No More Fat Suit

Highest Weight: 220lbs
Lowest Weight: 165lbs
Starting weight: 209lbs
Current weight: 198.6lbs
1st Goal weight: 190lbs
2nd Goal weight: 180lbs
3rd Goal weight: 170lbs
4th Goal weight: 160lbs
5th Goal weight: 150lbs
6th Goal weight: 140lbs
7th Goal weight: 130lbs
Final Goal Weight: 120lbs
Height: 5'3"


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Is it wrong to feel like I don’t deserve food, or feel like I shouldn’t get to eat because I’m a fuck up? Ugh, I don’t know. My mind is everywhere right now.

So… It’s been a while

Hi guys. I know I’ve been gone for MONTHS, but I’m back now. Here I am. Hi. How are you?

Anyway, I’ve lost like 10lbs in the last couple weeks. I started taking my anti depressants again and my doctor said it could lower my appetite (I told her I was eating nonstop), and now my appetite is like, half, if not less. Food doesn’t seem as good to me anymore. I have a hard time finding things that sound edible. I can look in the fridge or cupboard for long periods of time and find nothing. I think part of it is laziness.

But I’m starting to wonder if my reduced appetite is actually from my medicine or if I’ve subconsciously convinced myself that my medication is suppressing my appetite. I can go for HOURS without eating, without wanting to eat. I know that it’s dangerous, but I can already see that I’ve lost weight. I’m really close to where I want to be, or my first goal weight or whatever, and it feels soooo good. Not eating feels good. Being hungry feels good. I’ve never felt this way before. I don’t really know what to do.


Giveaway :)


Giveaway :)

I joined a gym yesterday. I went for the first time today.

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